Twenty years from now is a very large chunk of time. In that amount of time I would like to say that I will have accomplished many things, been many places and have a stable career and home, but I’m not going to. Instead of creating unrealistic accomplishments and achievements, or imputing standards on a life I would rather live than plan, I’m going to think about what kind of relationship I hope to have maintained and improved with myself.

At this point in my life I would be thirty-seven, that’s plenty of time to practice a good, healthy relationship with me, my mind, and my body. It is difficult to predict fully what mindset I will be in, but these are goals that are important for me to have. I would like to be happy. When I refer to the word happiness, its not bliss exactly, not energetic nor is it invigorating. It’s peaceful. Very calm and quiet. I have time. I want time to breath and recognize my surroundings, or go swimming and take my dog for a walk, time to kill. For me to achieve this I will practice a healthy lifestyle, and for me that means three square meals a day with two snacks in between. That means chocolate for dessert, or else I get very irritable. It also means that I need to exercise at least thirty minutes four to five times a week, but something I enjoy doing, like swimming or jump roping, otherwise I’m miserable. It is also important for me to regroup several times a week and listen to what my body and mind are telling me they need. Meditation. Focusing so absolutely on an image and sound, for me peace trees and the echoes of time.

I know myself, my emotional deficits and how to compensate for them, but it takes much time to put into practice all of the elements that makes one such as myself a whole healthy person. This is my dream and my goal, and often the topic of my fears. I worry that I won’t reach this place, my mentality, along with my overall wellness has been a hardship, to which I have just begun to address, and although things have improved tremendously, these things take time, and I must be patient. So, in twenty years time, I hope to achieve my overall well being and place it first above all other aspects of my life. I dream of doing the world a great deal of good, but I can only do as good as I am. Therefore, I believe that every other aspect of my life will just fall into place, not so effortlessly, but I am a determined and strong young woman, and will only become more so, I speak and act with conviction and poise, and am my own biggest advocate. I will achieve much in life, I am certain, so as far as careers and a family goes, I will be according to how I am. We’ll see!